Anything & Everything

Hi

2011-09-04T22:57:00.000-05:00

should OBAMA be re-elected for president for the 2012 election??????

2011-04-14T23:13:00.000-05:00

should OBAMA be re-elected for president for the 2012 election??????

vote here... http://www.facebook.com/#!/home.php?sk=question&id=10150198752732359

Larry David for President 2012

2011-04-14T10:47:00.002-05:00

i think larry david should be president!!!!!!!

Texas Food Challenges

2011-04-13T10:44:00.004-05:00

well i am currently making a book about all the awesome and exciting food challenges throughout good ole TEXAS!!

like us on facebook!!! :)

Twitter

2011-04-09T22:19:00.002-05:00

Well I have been using twitter lately and it's weiRd bc it's soooooo popular but I just do not understand why it's popular...maybe with time of use with twitter I'll love it like the world out there

136th day of not smoking

2010-09-22T20:53:00.003-05:00

so hmm what is currently on my mind. well i watched fight club earlier today, which is my favorite movie by the way!! and a paticular scene is still in my mind when tyler says he wanted the other guy to hit him and that he has never been in a fight before and that he dosent want to live a life with regrets. it wasnt necessarily the fact he wanted to fight it was the fact he had never tried it and was just embracing something new and almost adventure like. so what im trying to say for myself is i dont want to live a life with regrets, i try my best at everything i can. i definitely dont want to think about when im old having regrets. well that is just what is on my mind at the moment :) <--that is a smiley face by the way LoL

in the past i have some regrets but lately in the past almost a year i dont have any regrets. i try my best, say what i feel and do what i want and i try to be as friendly as possible to everyone and i try to be as empathetic to people as well. i just want everyone to be happy as well as myself. life is too stressful at times or complicated, i think we can all try to make things a bit more mellow and more relaxed if we all just try.

oh yea i think today is my 136th day of not smoking cigarettes!! :)

okay those are my thoughts. now im off to the movies!! and yes im a big movie buff i love movies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

everyone have a great week

2010-09-20T09:10:00.002-05:00

I haven't posted something in a long time. Let me give some updates...i still have smoked since I went cold turkey almost 4 months now! Everyday I feel like I'm getting in better shape and am losing some more weight, but I don't rlly care to lose anymore weight as long as I am and look healthy and have lots of energy and have good stamina, but I won't lie i want my abs back which I know I will get there:) lately i feel like people have been taking advantage of my niceness, I mean I love being nice and helping other, but I feel like I'm just not being appreciated at times by certain ppl...blah! Okay that's enough of me venting! Everyone havea great week=)

yesterday before class

2010-09-09T07:25:00.002-05:00

so yesterday before class i saw that this guy walking by me dropped some cash, i yelled from a far to get his attention and he kept walking. i picked up the cash and saw that it was 80 bucks in cash, so i run after him and hand him his money, he was pretty greatfull. and i felt good for doing the right thing, i wouldnt want someone to take my money, plus it's just money and my mind there are far more important things out there then to be greedy about money. kinda like that movie Greedy with Michael J Fox which is a great movie about greed! okay gotta walkin to classs now :)

this is your life

2010-09-07T08:47:00.001-05:00

so this line or quote popped in my head the middle of last week and i'm not sure where it came from but im still think about it and i will just end the post with it...

it's a great line and its really made me think about lots of things...

This is your life, are you who you want to be?

ramblings of a drunkin idiot

2010-09-03T23:19:00.002-05:00

So this morning I was too much in a rush ti write sothing and i had a lot on my mind. But right now its friday night and I'm drunk! I'm rewlly really really craving a cigarette right now:( blah I wish I never smoked!!!!!!!!!!

nothing is coming to mind

2010-09-02T07:47:00.002-05:00

thursday thursday thursday thursday! hello internet world................i have been thinking about what to type for the last 5 minutes and nothing is coming to mind, so i will just say something happy and optimistic. if anyone out there aactually reads this then i hope you have a great and amazing day!!!!!!!!!!

me and the beach

2010-09-01T07:59:00.002-05:00

It's Wednesday!! I'm about to gi run off and go to my 3 classes of the day. I wish I had my a&p lab everyday instead of once a week. Its just a lot of fun, well for me anyways. So I'm taking 16 hrs this semester and at the moment it feels like a lot but I think after two weeks it will just smooth out if u will and i will have it on lockdown. I'm typing this on my android and think its so awesome I can do that, I love technology! But alas I'm tired of texting and all that stuff. I think it woupd be soooooooo awesome to go on vacation to some warm beach somewhere for a whole month with no internet or phone or tv and just me and the beach. Okay gotta run now. Hope everyone has a fantastic day!

2nd post for today

2010-08-31T16:30:00.004-05:00

@ starbucks. been here for 2 hours now and did some more studying! yay me...lol studying is nice but definitely gets boring after a while which is why i am writing a blog post which is also a little weird because this will be my 2nd post of the day and i have not done that in a long time. i had my anatomy class today and my lab right afterwards and i really really like the labs, i think they are a lot of fun today we learned about the functions of what goes on in a cell and i found it REALLY interesitng! i cant wait till next week when i can go back to the lab. So i was talking about a girl not too long ago and we broke up andthen we were just friend, then not friends and then no communication and havent seen her in about 2 weeks, and i kind of want to hear her voice and see her, is that crazy? i dunno maybe i kind of miss her a bit. i dunno what im thinkign about her, part of me is a bit mad about lots of stuff and another part just wants to hear from her...blah. that is just what im thinking at the moment. later this evening if i get enough studying in (read, notes, quizes, etc) i think i will probably get a drink with the girl i was talking about in my post earlier today, lets just call her The Physical Trainer. I dont think it would be appropriate to use names on blogs, because it really doesnt mater. for the times we have hung out it has been fun and she seems really nice. okay i need to get off of this now and do another hour of studying then get some exercise in, then shower and more studying...lol then maybe a drink if i have time! oh yea so today and since classes have started it has been kind of a new challenge not to smoke a cigarette because i would always smoke a cigarette in between classes(i know a disgusting habit) and now that im at starbucks i see people smoking outside of here and both of those things really make me crave a cigarette. i dont plan to pick up smoking again tho!

maybe i am making excuses

2010-08-31T08:41:00.004-05:00

hello internet world i am wired on coffee and am on my android phone waiting till my next class starts in an hour. so i dont have really anytghing enlightening to say today, well nothing comes to mind at the moment. i guess ill just talk about my day yesterday, i woke up had coffee went to classes till 3pm then went to starbucks bc my internet is still down and got in about 2 hours of homework then i went home put my gym shorts on and went for a run outside, showered, dinner, more studying at starbucks, passed out by 10pm and then woke up @ 630am...yay fun huh? i think today will most likely be the same....okay now something does come to mind....

so i have been on some dates in the last well about 2 months and have been on dates with 3 seperate girls now. and i keep coming up with reason why i dont want to continue dating them, i didnt like how one dressed she was trying too hard all the time and sometimes i like the casual look, the next ones laughing annoyed me because its very LOUD and masculine so that when she laughs it sounds like a man, and the next one is very shy and lacks confidence like always asking me "is that okay with you?" or saying sorry for just every little thing. i told my cousins husbandChris yersterday about this and he said you have to go with what you feel but make sure your not just making excuses for getting rid of a girl. maybe i am making excuses? i just dont know! i am still casually talking to the physical trainer one and she seems nice and is good times, maybe i should just lighten up a little about all these STANDARDS or REQUIREMENTS im making up these things on the go?? maybe? i didnt use to think like this, like for the girl i was dating not too long ago. Chris told me there is probably a deeper reason why i am making these excuses, but i guess i just need to think about it some more...maybe im looking for the girl that is just PERFECT in my eyes?? does that even exist? again something i will continue to think about today....ireally like making a post in the morning, because my mind is a bit more clear in the mornings and then once i type it out it relaxes me even more

so i want to see some COMMENTS, come on people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

an open book

2010-08-30T07:45:00.002-05:00

It's Monday!!!!! As corny as this might sound I always tell myself when I wake up on mondays "this is a new week and it will be a great week because I will make the best of it''

So i have not talked about my smoking or lack there of for smokijg in a while now! Well its my 113th day of not smoking and it might seem weird that I still know the number of days but I like it:) it just sshows me that I have been trying my best. Because people can only try there best in this life and life might seem hard at times but I always think if you just try your best you will have no regrets because you will know you have given it your all And that is all that rlly matters.

So iv been thinking a lot lately about my family and how everyone has all these SECRETS! And I don't have any secrets and I wish my family could be as open as I am, bc it is true what they say "secrets don't make friends". I consider myself in life as an open book that anyone is can read. I just wish my family could not have so much drama! But I guess every family has drama LOL

So my cousins husband Chris was in town yesterdayfor business and we had lunch and its always a really fun time with him. We talked about well everything going in my life and he talked about everything in his life too. We are definitely two open books and no secrets which is rlly cool. He told me this quote that i really like "a mans drunkin words are a mans sober thoughts" and I believe this to be true for males and females.

I have typed enough on my Android phone, my thumbs are tired!

starbizzle

2010-08-29T10:39:00.003-05:00

so my internet went down the other day and is still not working so alas i am sitting here at Starbucks with my Venti Iced Coffee+1 shot of expresso. And i am really liking studying here bc i like the ambiance, expecially the music. usually if i just go some place quiet then i get distracted somehow, maybe it's my ADD or something but i think i need to study in an atmosphere like starbizzle<-- that's my Kewl lingo of what i like to call Starbucks! LoL

is it weird that i like to study? and i really like writing notes down in my notebook, seriously i have been at starbucks for about an hour and i took a break to write an entry on my blog or Man Journal if you will. I have said this before but i to read my blog is to know my inner thoughts. yesterday evening i watched my cowboys in there pre-season game against the houston Texas and blah blah blah blah they did not look like the cowboys i know they can be! is this the shape for things to come this season????????i sure hope not! so for almost 2 months i have been hanging out with a new friend and her name is Sarah and she is really nice and cool. were totally just plutonic friends and dont see eachother in a romantic way or anything, dont get me wrong she is pretty but i just dont see her as significant other. but it's really cool because i dont have many lady friends that i can talk to about stuff. she is going through a messy break up from a few months back and her little heart is all broken, and i listen to her and what she thinks from time to time. Yesterday before when we met up at a Chili's bar to watch the cowboys game she gave me a card and it was a homemade card and she wrote this long letter about how she is glad that i listen to her about her ex-boyfriend and how she is glad im her friend. it was just really sweet, im glad she knows im there for her. because i like to consider myself a really nice person and i like to be there for everyone, becuase i like helping and caring for others. but anyways i think i have written enough for today.

also for the last 3 days now i have had this song in my head and i think it's just a great song and i love the piano it's called colerblind by, Counting Crows

stubborness

2010-08-28T11:53:00.003-05:00

I'm at strabucks right now super wired on coffee! I just read the first 2 chapters of my anatomy book and made some notes. Last night was fun bc I was at the house of blues and saw this band called Ween play and they totally kicked butt. Right now I'm really really wired on coffee, I shouold probably stop drinking coffee bc too much caffeine is bad for u, but oh well maybe one day. I did quit smoking:) and Its been over 4 months since I have smoked, I unfortunately still have urges to smoke but I feel too stuburn to have a smoke. I can be a pretty stubborn person at times, I use to be really about things. But I try not to be stubborn bc I don't want to hold back on certain things. I think I'm more stubborn when it comes to girls than any other situations, I dunno why tho. Anyways... okay I'm going to get some more studying in now...

im only 25

2010-08-27T07:40:00.004-05:00

So I'm making this post on my Android phone right before I go into class. So the girl that i was talking abiut 2 posts ago I think, well she doesn't want to stay in contact with me anymore and I'm not going to lie it makes me a little sad bc we had some good times together and @ times things seemed great between us but thats all i will say aboit her.

So in my last post i was talking about my exx from Cali and how I'm glad I didn't marry her, I think one great thing I got from that relationship is that I know what I want and most importantly is that I know what will make me happy. I learned that communication is one of the most important parts in a healthy relationship. And maybe I'm getting old although I'm only25 im tired of playing games with girls, i want to have a fun times but i can alsobe serious. Everyone around me seems to be getting married and/or making babies, which is weird bc if everyone seems to be doing this does that make me weird for not being married and/or have babies??? This is just what's on my mind, I am not in a rush. I think if the right person comes along that I would want those things.

So classes are really awesome,I think its going to be a great semester, like a nerd last night I studyied all night and made lots of flash cards for my a&p class. I like studying! After school yesterday I went to Starbucks and studied which was kind of nice to have my coffee next to me, bc I love getting all hyper on coffee and studying!!!!

Okay class time! Woot

thursday morning thoughts

2010-08-26T07:28:00.006-05:00

back from a nice jog and im sweaty! i know ladies it's super hott!! i'm currently listening to "harder, faster, stronger" by Daft Punk...the song always gets me really pumped.

So i have my first set of classes today in just a few hours from now and im excited and i will admit a little nervous but that is just normal. Im really excited to start learning some anatomy, i am determined to make an A+ in that class i will not take anything less and if i receive anything less i will be just be mad and dissapointed in myself, i know that might sound like im putting too much pressure on myself but i think that is a good thing. A person has to have goals in life or there just not going anywhere in life. Like me losing weight and me planning to be in great physical shape because when im in the nursing i can lead by example when im telling people they need to lose weight for their health i mean it and wont by hypocritical if i were to be a fatty(dont get me wrong i have nothing against people whom are overweight).

So it was weird i got a crazy phone call last night. it was heather my ex whom i was with for 3 years and we lived in california together. i hadnt talked to her on the phone in 15 months!!!!!!!!! She called me to ask about some relationship advice, which i did not mind. After a while we started talking about what has been going on in our lives. during the phone call this old feeling came back and it was a feeling i had towards our end of our relationship, this feeling was...well hard to explain she is a negative person and never has any enthusiasm and i remember towards the end that i hated the fact that she always seemed sad and had a negative look on life. Dont get me wrong she is a nice person, i just personally do not want to be with a person who has such a pessimistic outlook on life, which is one of the reason i didnt propose and marry her. but it was nice talking to her, hopefully what i made since..lol she is nice, i just knew after our conversation on the phone that moving on with my life without her was the correct decision. but i for sure wish her the best in her life!

oh yea if my last post did not make since it's because i made that post with my phone so i left out some words. so lately i feel like i can't relax and i have no idea why! like i have always been doing something like running or racquetball or hanging out with friends or anything, like yesterday i was at home and just watching tv and i just couldnt sit still, i dunno why. i use to be able to just relax and chill out but i feel like i have to always be doing something at all times! i think i might no the reason why, i think it might be the fact that if i am still for a few minutes my mind will start thinking about certain things and i dont want to think about those things becxause it might make me feel a bit sad and confused and frustrated. BLAH oh well. I think to myself why cant life just be easy and not complicated with so many complexities? but i guess you can't always get what you want and life is just like that. maybe all the things in life that are easy arent worth it? and all the great stuff is complex and complicated and that's why it's wroth fighting for?? hmm this is something i will think about for sure!

okay i have written enough! class time...Woot woot woot!!!

last nights date

2010-08-25T08:18:00.002-05:00

The date last night well. Went to BJs brewhouse for food and had a drink there. She seems really nice, but all in all what was most important is we had a lot of fun and had some luaghs. We actually have a lot of weird things in common...LOL so tmrw my classes start and I'm super excited! I can't wait to start learning anatomy. I have been playing a lit of interaction games online ti help u learn. I am alsolooking into learning some spanish bc I figure when I'm a nurse and knowing Spanish would come in handy especially in Texas, who knows if I willbe in Texas tho??? I like to go where the sea leadsme. Okay those are my thoughts of the day. I hope everyone has an amazing day! Woot!

a little weird

2010-08-24T07:52:00.003-05:00

just got back from another morning jog, i will have my abs back im determined! so the girl i was talking about in my last post her and i are going to be friends but only through texts and email, which is a little different bc it would be nice to see that person from now and then but i guess its for the best because im sure if we saw eachother my feelings would probably just come back up again, i dunno what she thinks of me but im sure the feeling just isnt mutual what i think of her. but either way, its fine she is a nice person and well sometimes between a boy and a girl things just dont mesh well together and iv realized that i cant keep chasing someone who dosent want me. but hopefully we can remain friends, bc i like talking to her about stuff, but anyways. So tonight i have a date with girl i met the other day, and she's actually a person i went to H.S. with but havent seen her since H.S. she seems nice and she is a nutritionist and does physical training in her spare times but i think she is little weird(personality wise) but i think i like that, nothing wrong with a little different, bc i think im a bit weird. im taking her out to eat and if things go well from there maybe a drink or 2. but it's weird bc its a 1st date and those are always crazy, i like the anitcipation part of not knowing whats going to happen, should be very interesting!

anyways those are my thoughts of the morning, so i never see comments on her and it sure would be nice to see some, so if you read say a little something!!!!

Happy Monday?!?!

2010-08-23T07:28:00.002-05:00

so i just got back from a jog and it feels finally my head is clear at the moment. i know i jogged @ 7AM this morning, it was hard. So i told myself i would start waking up early to get ready for my classes starting in a few days but that has not worked that well. Wed, Thursday, Fri, SAT i went out and had drinks and to me that's a lot sunday i felt all blah and funny thing is i like going out and stuff but not all the time i feel a little out of control there, one of my favorite things is just relaxing with a nice movie. so i will not go out to drink till at least the weekend. i think my body will appreciate it and my mind will as well too.

So i guess i will talk about it, wed night i was out with a person i had gone out with before and i consider her a really good friend if anything at all. She is really nice and wed night it was werid because we had drinks and had a few laughs and argued a bit and ended up kissing but all in all we argued a lot and maybe that wasnt the perfect venue for us bc of our built up tension between us bc we ended up bantering back in forth about various things. A part of me is glad we did have that night bc we talked about our feelings a bit but another part of me thinks i lost a good friend bc we havent really "talked" in a while. She is a good person and maybe we wont ever get back together bc of all of our tension we have, but i hope we can be friends. So i never really said this in my blog but i had been dating a girl for a few weeks this girl who is a Art Teacher working on getting her masters in something in Art i dont remeber what it was tho but anyways... after my wed drunkin night with my friend i realized that the person i was dating isnt right for me and although it was good times with this girl whom wanted more from me emotionaly, which is okay but i didnt want the same things bc i didnt see her that way and so on fri night i broke things off with her. She is a really sweet and nice girl, but i didnt want to lead her on and be a bad guy, so i thought it would be best to end things before it gets messy, she was okay about it although she cried a bit. I dont see myself as a bad guy i really want to be a gentleman at heart. i love the whole chivalry thing opening doors and stuff and treating my lady as if she were my queen, i know it might seem cheesy in this 21st century society of ours but i like it!

okay i think i have written quite enough. Happy MONDAY everyone!!!

be who you are

2010-08-20T15:59:00.003-05:00

so i reread my last post about me thinking about not wanting to share my feeling and having open communication and i decided thats a bad idea. that's what makes me well ME. and i like that i can express myself maybe i might say things a little too much but i just speak my mind. there's a quote i really like which i will end my this blog post entry with...

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those that matter don't mind"

expressing myself

2010-08-19T09:24:00.003-05:00

blah my emotions are going back and forth. beginning of this year i told myself any new girl i go out with i will fully communicate with them to the best of my ability. So i did so with a certain girl i was dating and i thought it was a great idea exrepess thought and feelings, but now im not so sure anymore. why would i want to express my feelings to be shut out later in the future or not have someone else communicate back with me? i have this feeling that i should just build a wall around me so i wont be hurt again. is that so crazy? i am just thinking out loud, but i think i should stop this "full communication" thing i was doing, bc i everytime i do it just dosent work out well for me. BLa blah blah blah blah i just need some time to think about this then, bc i really like communicating and expressing myself, but i dont like my feelings hurt either...

in other news, im kind of excited for classes to start! im a little scared for my 16 hours this semster bc i havent ever done more than 4 classes but i know i will do well with some hard work. one of my favorite things when i study is to have that TV show HOUSE playing in the background and sometimes going to the libarary is nice i have also been to starbucks a few times too to study. oh i cant wait to start stressing over tests! <--that was a sarcastic remark LoL.

100 days not smoking

2010-08-17T09:55:00.003-05:00

so i havent smoked a cigarette in 100 consecutive days now! im proud of myself. i smoked for 5 years. it's been really hard to quit and i still have cravings to have a cigarette. i actually tried to quit last summer and i think i made it like 32 days until i had one cigarette then the next day i had 2 than faster than i thought i was smoking a pack a day again!

So when i decided to quit 100 days ago i decided i would try something new, so after 3 days of not smoking i picked up running outside and i actually ran outside for 28 days straight and it was really hard, but it really helped when for my craving bc i would just jog and i would basically be too exaushted to even want a cigarette and the "runners high" was a nice substitute as well. A plus side to picking up the jogging since i started i have lost 6-8LBs. And since i havent smoked cigarettes i think i look a lot healthier these days.

Why did i stop smoking cigarettes??? well there was a lot of reasons, well of course it's bad for you and i dont want to die, also i know my brother and his wife would be having a child in the next year or two and i wouldnt want to be around the child smoking, or maybe i would have a child one day and i wouldnt want to smoke arounhd the my child(my dad smoked around me my entire life), well i always thought about smoking also to start getting back in to physically fit shape, but other than that there is only one other reason why i quit at the time i was still smoking i started seeing a girl and she hated smoking and i didnt want to scare her off so i decided that this would just give me extra motivation to quit(girls dont want to smell smoke or kiss a smoker).

it's weird i would have a lot of craving but my last 2 weeks it really feels a lot easier, when i use to just get stressed a signal in my head would just say "go have a cigarette and relax", although i still have a few of those signals i dont think of it as much i use to, so im really glad it's a lot easier! and i seriously feel that i will never pick up smoking again.

A cool advantage of me not smoking is i have saves a lot of money i think i have saved somewhere between 500-600 bucks and thats only in 100 days, so crazy!

One draw back from me quitting smoking is after two or so weeks of quitting i my mind startted racing and couldnt relax and i would think about everything and i mean everything even the most ridiculas things. which i guess why is because my nerves were just going CRAZY and couldnt relax, but i would seriously analyze like EVERYTHING, Blah to that! but that faded away as soon as i learned how to relax and just let things be, but that wasnt until about 2-3 weeks ago where my nerves wouldnt go crazy and are calm now. I guess all this might sound a little weird to a non smoker.

i'm so glad that i quit though, so if anybody who reads this and is thinking about quiting or is currently quitting then my advice to you is just take it one day at a time because it does get a lot easier you just have to have some will power and you should definitely pick up some running, because without running i dont think i would have made it this far at all. Also it's hard to quit without talking to someone about it every now and then, so i think it's important to have someone who can be like your moral or mental cheerleader, might sound dumb but it helps.

well i think that is all that i want to say about the smoking for sure it's been a long journey and i think i will do some kind of celebration my 200 days, i know celebrating might seem silly, but you have to spoil yourself and pat yourself on the shoulder at least that's what i think!!

okay as always here is a joke!!!!! enjoy...well it's not a joke actually it's a few quotes that i think are funny that someone put in a homemade card for me back on my 20 days not smoking...

"The best way to stop smoking is to carry wet matches"

"Thank heaven i have given up smoking again!...God! I feel fit , homicidal, but fit. A different man. Irritable, moody, depressed, rude, nervy, perhaps; but the lungs are fun"

"Nicotine patches are great. Stick one over each eye and you can't find your cigarettes"

one more day!

2010-08-16T16:00:00.003-05:00

tomorrow is my 100 days of not smoking cigarettes! im excited that i have made it this long!

but that's all i wanted to write, but i will write more tomorrow :)

my Man Journal

2010-08-15T12:44:00.004-05:00

so i like to think i try my best for anything i do in life. i dont want to have any regrets, When i moved back to TX i told myself that i will be the best i can be and say what i feel and all of that good stuff. Since then i dont really have any regrets, i just try my best. I have all these new feeling these days, i feel like i am more emotional than i use to be and more sympathic/empathetic towards ppls feelings and have this new outlook on life and i feel like a new person, i dunno why i have these new feelings in me, maybe i just feel really happy inside and love helping people? or maybe it's a chemical change from me losing 30 LBs and no cigarettes and changes my mood for the better? or maybe it's all of that? either way im happy either way. is this how typical male is? i have no idea!!! maybe im not the average male and not normal to what a "normal male" should be? that's what i think, but although i might not be typical/average but i like who i am. i think back how i was when i was younger and i was well just not mature, but it's definitely shapped for the person i am now for the better. so i have this person in my mind and have i dunno how to interrepret these feelings i have for them, like it's a new feeling that i can't explain, but i like these feelings like it's somethign i havent felt in a long long time or maybe ever? hard to explain, with some time thinking about it i will write a post about it eventually...

so i started my blog about a year and half ago and titles the blog "Anything & Everything". but really it's turned in to my "Man Journal" <--- like how i made that all masculine and not calling it "my diary"...lol but i think it's great to write things down, because well for me my thoughts get all jumbled up in my head, but when i write it down it feels very therapeutic and it clears my mind.

well that's all the goody stuff that was on my mind here is a joke!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Doctor says to a man, "You're pregnant!" The man says, "How does a man get pregnant?" The doctor says, "The usual way. A little wine, a little dinner, you know?"

even more posts

2010-08-11T10:03:00.002-05:00

i seriously have had this song in my head for a few days now. check it out below...

i hope everyone likes it as much as i do!

So i dunno why but i read even more of my posts that i have written i probably read the last 50, why must i reflect? i guess that's the only way to grow as a person, well at least in my eyes. i think some people might think i might be a bit too emotional or different or weird than other males, but i think thats a good thing. well i will open up my other posts on the front page for people to see as well. and don't me wrong i am reflecting but i am seriously one happy man i have a lot going for me and live a happy life.

here is a little jokey enjoy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Q. What’s the definition of a woman’s perfect lover?

A. A man with a nine inch tongue who can breath through his ears.

my last 30

2010-08-10T09:18:00.003-05:00

7 days from now will be my 100 days of not smoking cigarettes anymore! i'm proud of myself for making this far. i remember the first couple weeks seemed like hell, actually i will talk about this more on my 100 days. anyways....

im a little stressed at the moment, why cant i have my cake and eat it too?<--figuratively speaking of course...not fair, i guess its for the best, BLAH! that felt good to say...lol anyways, im about to go play racquetball for the first time and although the rules seem really easy i think the game will be hard to play, but i guess i will be finding out for myself in the next few hours. i was reading some of my old posts this morning and wow some of the things said and feeling are weird, well weird is not that the right word lets go with 'interesting', because it's almost im like reliving those moments when i read them, like my little icu story to read that puts me right back in the train of thought i was in at that moment and i also read my last 30 posts, actually i will display my last 30 on the front page if anyone would like to read. so i did some volunteering yesterday and it was a lot of fun, i like helping out others, i think it's just in my nature to do so. okay okay okay i have written enough enjoy your joke......

Q: Why did the blonde get fired from the banana plantation?

A: Because she threw out all the bent ones.

Say Hey

2010-08-09T09:38:00.004-05:00

this waking up early thing is hard! but i need to get back in the routine so im not falling asleep in class. i remember back in cali for work i would wake up at 530 in the morning and i hated waking up before the Sun came up, it seriously made me cranky...lol lately when i wake up i turn on my itunes and listen to some upbeat music and it puts me in a great mood for waking up, like currentyl im listening to this song called "Say Hey" by Michael Franti & Spearhead its just a fun song. If you get the chance you should check out the song! im sure you could find it on youtube or google it

so i didnt write anything yesterday either, so weird, well this weekend has been a little busy but it was great weekend hanging out with friends and going out. the other day i did some volunteer help and i was keeping company with an older man named Jack and he was going to have some kind of heart surgery this past saturday and sunday i went to go see him and he is looking alright yay! it might seem weird because i dont even know this person but im happy he is going to be okay. anyways i dont really like talking much about the volunteering because i dont feel like its something i should be rewarded for, i just do it to help out, which is why i havent really told much of my friends and family that i volunteer. anyways...

So i have been doing a lot of jogging and playing a lot of tennis lately and im getting in great shape, but lately im also getting a lot quicker and faster. i really wanted to get back in shape and be fast and strong and all that good stuff because i use to be in super great shape ages 17-20 then i had the blod cloat and had to stop being physically active for a while, im just happy im almost in shape like i use to be!

I still have that song in my head and im kind of doing a little dance in my head, if someone actually reads this you should definitely go and check it out!!!!!!! "Say Hey by, Michael Franti & Spearhead, go listen to it now!!!!!!!!! LOL

JOKE TIME!!!

Q. What do you call a rabbit with fleas?
A. Bugs Bunny

the secret to life

2010-08-06T10:24:00.004-05:00

i fugured out the secret to life. and i figured my readers would like to know what that is. so let me share with yea. but first let me vent and talk about something first...

so u have been playing a lot of tennis lately and wow, it's putting my legs into shape and increasing my felxibility in my legs as well and my balance. i dont figure myself to be any kind of health nut or anything, i mean i do like to exercise and try not to eat Ultimate Cheesburgers from Jack In The Box, but hey sometimes you just have to spoil yourself! like late last night i had an ultimate cheesburger and WOW those things are like heaven on earth! LOL but i like to stay in shape, and it's weird because i stopped smoking about i think its 88 days ago now and for the last 7 days it has seemed to have gottin a lot easier! the craving are really just not there and it's weird becsausee when i would normally get stressed it was like a signal in my head would turn on and say "HEY, go have a smokey!" now when i get stressed no signal goes off and i just have a glass of water and sit down for a minute or two. i guess it's hard to explain if you have never smoked ciggarettes before. anyways...

so you want to know the secret to life huh? well honestly i was joking there is no secret, well at least in my eyes i dont think there is any "secret". but if i were to guess if there were any "secret" then i would say, people should do what makes them happy, be kind to others and live a life with no regrets and live a life to the fullest with passion. AND im not sure but lately i have been thinking more spirtualy about god/jesus all that good stuff and i think there might be something there. i went to chuch the other week and i think i want to start going to church and reading the bible. because i think there might be something there, i guess thats hard to explain. but i think i will go to church more sometime, somewhere and start reading some of the bible and see for myself. anyways....

here is a JOKE! yay everyone loves a good laugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Q. What do firemen put in their soup?
A. Fire crackers!

helping out

2010-08-05T06:55:00.004-05:00

hey hey hey hey hey!

im about to leave to go do some volunteer work at a hospital and im pretty pumped about it! this will be my first time and i will be just keeping company with patients whom might be lonely or without family or friends and basically just need some company. Mayb these people are depressed? im not sure yet, but i think im good with talking to people and i think i can help! i talked about this in an post on my blog some time back where i had this urge to help people and felt like i should give back some, because well my life has been good and i dont consider myself selfish or anything, i dunno hard to explain i guess i just like to help! anyways i just wanted to write a quick something bc i didnt write anything yesterday which is really weird because i wrote everyday for a while! okay gotta go run now....

Q. Why did the Chicken cross the road?

A. To get to the other side, DUh!

12 months now

2010-08-03T08:38:00.003-05:00

so since school is coming up soon, im trying to get in the routine of waking up early. Wow, it's kinda hard because i just got use to sleeping in till 9-10. my goal is awake by 7 to 730. i woke up this morning at 730 and it was hard! my earliest class dosent start till 930 which is fine with me. im seriously pumped about school, because i want to start learning some new stuff, lately i have been reading some books and studying up on various new subjects i will be taking on this next semester. like this morning i read a good 20 pages of this book my dad gave me, he gave me this religious book about a month ago and wanted me to read it and thus far it seems interesting it's about a person who is in a awakes from a coma and has memories of dieing and going to hell, then his life journey on trying to be a better person, bc apparently he did some bad things in his past, but it has said what he did yet. Anyways it should be interesting, unfortunatly since its over 400 pages hopefully i can finish it right before school starts..lol

so i got to thinking yesterday, i wonder where i will be in my life 12 months from now. it's a weird thing, bc just a little over 12 months ago i was in cali moving back to TX and i have accomplished every single one of my goals from then to now(if you want to read the goals its in one of my posts maybe a month back). i just think i have come a long way and im just so curious to see how i will be 12 more months from now, i feel and i know im a better person then when i was before. Not that i was a bad person when i was in cali, but my attitude towards life wasnt as positive as i am now. i think bc i had my big boy job for 2 years and i was in management with the corporate people it just changed me back then, almost like i was in the mind set of "money money money" and i was in the sales thing and it almost gave me a persona of myself of being an asshole and i did not like this. i guess it's hard to explain, i just feel like i know what's is more important in life, like i guess for example money, like money to me is not everything, of course it's nice bc i was making over 65k a years over there, but im just so glad that i gave all that up and i litteraly did give it up, i just quit that job and packed up and moved back to texas to go back to school and be around family. i guess it's just hard to explain, i think it's just a new feeling of new beginnings and being able to shape and create a guideline for my life, bc i know what i want and im on track to achieve all of it. and i ultimately after all this time after being in Cali and i just feel like a happy person now:) anyways...

i still have that song Not Afraid by Eminem in my head. it's a good song but is in my head like it's on repeat.

here is a joke!

Q. What do you call a blonde with 2 brain cells?
A. Pregnant.

texas heat

2010-08-02T12:07:00.000-05:00

i just got back from playing some tennis and it was a lot of fun! wow, i sure did sweat a lot my shirt was drinched, i know it's pretty hott and sexxy! and i just took a long cold shower and it sure was refreshing, i think later on a nice nap might be in order.

So all day today i have had that song "not afraid, by Eminem" in my head. pretty awesome song if you ask me, if you havent heard of it you should definitely check it out or youtube it for sure. i thought i would have more to say, but i think im just tired from being in this texas heat and cant think straight. so im off...

as always here is a joke...

Q. Why are brunette jokes one-liners?

A1. So blondes can REMEMBER them.
A2. Because it would HURT a blonde's brain to think of a longer one.

the bet

2010-08-01T12:32:00.000-05:00

so the other day i was hanging out with my brother and we were playing some poker heads up. We started saying some smack talking about saying who is better in poker, so we decided to make our little poker game a little more interesting we decided we would have a bet. I bet him if i beat him he has to give me $100 bucks and he bet me if i won that i would have to shave my chest and stomach before we float on the river....

few days later after the river i sit here as i write this post and my chest is a little scratchy because the hair is growning back in! if you couldnt tell yet i lost the bet! i was soooo close to beating him! it's weird because i hadnt shaved my chest or stomach till i was like 18. Since i was pretty much like a hairy animal, now it makes my look all smooth and silky LOL...but it's so scratchy. errrrr

So last night after the river my brother and i and his wife are driving back home and my brother decides to say something STUPID. he says to his wife "Babe, i'm going to tell you something, but promise now don't to get mad" i instantly turn to my brothers wife and say "OMG, get ready to be mad because he is about to say something stupid"....alas my brother says this thing to his wife and sure enough it made her mad, well not just mad but furious, like she errupted like a volcano! after them yelling at eachtoher in the car for 10 mins it went to silence, then i realized damn, we still have another hour till home. We sat in silence for the next hour!! during the silence, i got to thinking wow, my brother really said somethign quite stupid, i would have never said such a thing as he did to my own wife(im not married yet) then it dawned on me which might sound kind of cocky or arrogant or weird coming from a guy...that i know i would be an awesome husband one day, because i consider myself a gentleman at heart and i like to treat my girl as if she is my queen, because i think girls deserve to be treated special. maybe this is just my chivalry speaking, but i do think that! of course i'm sure as in all relationships there will be some arguing because that is normal. Any form of communication regardless of yelling or arguing is still healthy, well to at least get ones feelings and thoughts out, keeping things bottles inside can drive one crazy...

...Because i use to do that a long time ago back a few years ago with a girl i was going out with for about 3 years. and would little arguments would come about i just thought, "oh, this dosent matter ill just stop thinkgin about it and let it go" but what happens then, well for me is just things build up and build up some more and this is unhealthy! so some months ago i personally decided that for now on i would do the oppositie and share and say everything that is on my mind. what i think is that communication is one of the most important parts in a healthy relationship.

anyways i think i have written enough today....

here is a little jokey....

Q. How did the pig get to the hospital?

A. In a hambulance!

good times and laughter

2010-07-31T08:27:00.000-05:00

hello readers or should i say non readers? LoL no one reads these things LoL

that being said i dont really have much to say. im pumped for today, because in the next few hours i shall be floating and tubbing down a river. Should be filled with good times and laughter. There is nothing like a good laugh. I love to laugh, which is probably why i love all comedy movies. One of my favorite things other than laughing myself is making someone else laugh. I consider myself a pretty fun person, i can make anyone laugh. dont get me wrong im no stand up comedian. although not many people know, but when i was in cali i did do a little improv at some comedy clubs, but i only did 5 minute spots and i only did this 4 times. But this was a long time ago, it was a lot of fun. anyways...

the other night i met someone that said he is in movie production company and is doing a movie in dallas in September and he said he needs people to help out and to be extras in his movie and he said i should help out. of course i said yes i will because that sounds like fun! i dont want to be an actor or anything, but i think it would be a great experience and fun....

blahg blah blah blah blah blah i dont realy have much more to say. alrighty it's work out then running then off to the river!

here is a joke...

Q: How can you tell when a FAX had been sent from a blonde?

A: There is a stamp on it.

tempting, clean and fashionable

2010-07-30T12:17:00.000-05:00

yesterday was my buddy Sean's 25th birtday so i went to Denton(my hometown) to visit him. It was pretty cool, he had some people over at his place and we did some cookin out and went swimming at his pool. I sware that boy as skinny and small as he is can pound some drinks, i could not hang! one thing that paticularly stood out that night was going to the bar that night because we went to go meet up with some of other friends at some bar. So i was told that they were playing a card game on the way to meet up at the bar, and i was pumped because i havent played poker in many months. it was funny because when we got there they were not playing poker but they were playing Apples to Apples lol and i had been told this game was fun. wow it was 12 of us playing that game for a few hours at the bar and drinking and it sure was a fun time. apparently for my green cards im "tempting, clean, and fashionable" <--sounds prety awesome to me!!! but yea it was fun times.

finally finished my book today The Art of War and here is my review. It was a good book and enlightening at times and i definitely recommend it! i know iknow it was a short review. it's cool being able to read something that i don't have to read, because i usually have no time to read something other than school text books. i dunno what to read next i think ill just have to browse the barnes and nobles till something pops at me. my first book i ever read was a big one it was Count of Monte Cristo and i think it was over 700 pages. i was 16 when i read it, and thinking back i have no idea why i even read the book because it wasnt required reading at school or anything. it took forever to finish that book though. but it's definitely my favorite book ever!

you know what time it is? i think you know what time it is! IT iS JoKe tImeEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and this is a blonde joke that some blondie girl told me last night that i thought was funny...

Q. What does a blonde make best for dinner?

A. Reservations!

81 days still not smoking at all

2010-07-29T10:15:00.000-05:00

hmm what to talk about today? i mean do i have to write something once a day? maybe i dont...well anyways im not going to talk about my not smoking because i feel confident that i am not going to smoke anymore...

...last night was pretty fun because me and a few people were in addison and went to some bars, which was cool because i have never really experienced Addison and especially it's night life. It was also cool because i met these people at the place i went to Yoga at and they are really awesome and fun and i am glad they invited me out to addision last night itwas seriously ridonkulasly fun. I consider myself open to try, explerience, and see new things, which is cool because the same people i hung out with want to go to some bars in Uptown dallas this weekend, which again is not really a place i have experienced in Dallas, but im open to checking it out. I want to see everything Dallas has to offer! i guess that is just my adventerous side.

so school starts up in a few weeks!! im pretty pumped though because im gonna kill it(that means mostly A's and maybe a B)! i just ordered all of my books online and wow why cant books be cheaper? why? it's not fair i could have spent some of that money on something like clothes or going out. oh well, not many people know this but when my grandpa passed away when i was 8 he left me a little something for my college side so i wouldnt have to struggle. and i wish he was still around so i could tell him thank you.

joke time!!!!!!!!!!!!1!!!!!!!!1!!!!!!!!!!

Q. What kind of bees make milk?

A. Boobies!

The ICU story

2010-07-28T09:44:00.001-05:00

i have been up for two hours now and i have been reading and studying, i heard somewhere that if you do some good reading and studying in the mornings then it helps to really sink it into your mind...anyways...

to read my posts is to know me. i write what i feel and say what i want on here. it's like my Fortress Of Solitude for my inner thoughts. one thing you should know is i dont ever think about what i am going to write before i start writing my post i just keep writing until something comes to mind and at the moment only one thing does come to mind for me, for me it was a little traumatic and eye opening to what i want to do the rest of my life, so let me start by taking you back in the time of my life 2005 or maybe was it 2004??...

i was 19 years old i was in great shape i think i weighed about 180 and went to the gym 6 days a weeks for 2 hours at a time. so one day when i woke up my left arm started to feel swollen. It didnt really hurt just felt a little weird like i worked out too much at that time. so at the time i didnt think much of it, later on during that day my left arm started turning a bit red, still not hurting, then later on that evening my arm seemed like it was soooo swollen and gigantic and it almost felt heavy, still did not actually hurt! so at the evening time i called my father and went to his house and showed him and he didnt know what it was and since it was about midnight at that time he told me we would just wait till morning and see if there are any improvement and if not we would go to the ER....

MORNING TIME! my arm is bigger! but still not actually hurting...my dad and i rush to the ER...i saw the dr.s they did there tests and they concluded i have a blood clot in my left arm, my heart is racing! "am i going to die???????????" my dad is panicing, he runs out of the hospital to have a cigarette! after some time while discussing what to do my family decided it would be best to send me to Baylor Hopsital In dallas because it apparently is one of the best. i get to Baylor that day and they say i need to have surgery an Angioplasty, which basically is toblow up a balloon inside a vein to attempt to open up the blood flow again. but they said i can not start this till tomorrow morning because i cant eat anything for 12 hour and have surgery that next morning, so again i must wait till morning...

MORNING TIME #2!! oh yea and my arm is bigger and swollen that it was and that morning my finger tips started to feel numb and again" am i goign to die???? am i going to lose my arm???" im FREAKING out! i get to baylor hospital that morning and am being preped for surgery and im scared, i dont think i have ever been scared in my entire life, they make me a cocktail to put me to sleep during the surgery, it's hard to explain this feeling being put under sleep and thinking "i hope i wake up!" ***this is really hard for me to type this right now :( because i dont think i have ever thought about this experience in detail like this ever***

WAKE UP TIME - i awake in ICU(intensive care unit) i have five wires things going into my left arm and two in my right arm. i am in agonizing pain, if i switch wieght in my body it hurts so i cant really move. they eventually give me some medicine but i still have a lot of pain. during the course of 4 days of pain i have family and friends coming in and out to see me. The Dr.s concluded i had been working out too much and since i had too much muscle that it pinched one of the veins causing the blood clot. but it was a scary time in my life because i layed there for 4 days, it's hard to explain, have you ever sat or layed down still in one spot for 4 days? well what happens is your are left there with nothing but your thoughts, you reflect you start to think about what's most important to you and who is important and you start to think about what you want your life to be. but unfortunatly for the next 3 years i self medicated myself with alcahol and occasionaly marijuana to hide away from those feelings and thoughts, but that is a different story of my life that ill share some other time, but i will say it was a time of my life where i did not respect myself and treated people who cared about me badly and thinking back i do not like the person i was, but it did shape who i am today and i know i am a better person now! anyways back to the story... There was some good that came out of this time i was in ICU, i met John...

WHO is John? John is the RN that was taking care of me during my time in ICU, John at that time was a man with a heart of GOLD. this RN was the only person i saw consistently, i think while in the hospital i must have saw about 12 different DR.s, which didnt seem personal at all, well to my feelings while i was there. The RN felt like was really there to help me... We talked a lot and i really respected what he was doing(his job taking care of me). I started to think this is what i think i want to do, i want to help people...

Although this to me was a very traumatic time, i did meet that RN and made me think about going into nursing and help people with my life...

i know this post was pretty long, but i also know no one is ever going to read this post, because there are so many blogs out there! anyways i will just say it like i said before, i do occasionaly think about the ICU thing but today i never really thoguht about it or wrote it out in detail like i did and ill admit it made me shed a few tears, but now that i am done writing it, well it feels that i have this weight lifted from my shoulders, if that makes any since. im really glad i wrote this all out :)

also i woke up this morning and was thinking i want to start doing new stuff. Like im thinking at least once every 2 weeks or once a month i do something i have never done in my life. and i have decided i will try out karaoke, it scares me like crazy to sing in front of other but i think it would be lots of fun and im totally going to do it, it makes me kind of excited and pumped think about it too!

are we ready for a joke????????

Q. How do dinosaurs pay their bills?
A. With Tyrannosaurus checks.

morning jogs rock my world!

2010-07-27T10:31:00.001-05:00

so i got back into jogging a few months ago i think it was about 70 days ago. and i have probably jogged 50 of those 70 days. and for the past 2 weeks i have been pretty much jogging 6 time a week and now i jog pretty much every morning. i can't explain it but i just got back from a jog and it feels great! maybe it's what they call the "runners high". i dunno but i like it a lot. when my classes start back up in the morning im definitely going to fit in to my morning routine. im pretty pumped about this because i use to jog when i was younger then i just got lazy and now i do it all the time. it's kind of hard to explain, but i guess since i use to be all lazy and did't exercise or look out for my health as much. Now i just have this feeling of my body just being alive! like every part of my body feels jsut amazing. well anyways im totally hooked on jogging.

So i have been taking my basics in school and i was thinking about going into Information Techonolgy because i am good with computers but recently(past 6 months) i have been thinking about going into nursing because i like helping people and i dont think i want to sit in a business office or cubicle the rest of my life and make someone else boat loads of money because they are greedy! it's just a feeling i have that i want to help people. a few years ago i took a lot of various pre-reqs to go into nursing so it really wouldnt take me long to finish it. next semester i loaded up on classes 16 hours and i put a few extra pre-reqs for the nursing. like i put Anatomy and Physisolgy on it. Of course this coming up semester i will know for sure while i am taking the Anatomy and Physiology class. but i am pretty positive in my head like 99% sure that going into nursing is what i want to do. i would be done with school in about 1.5 years. It sucks that i have just been flip flopping my major but im totally glad that im not just going to be stuck in a job i hate for the rest of my life. like i know so many people that have already graduated but they got degrees that were just easy and thought they could just get a great job and make money, they were wrong and i see how unhappy they are with just picking a major bc it was easy. I mean you go to college of course to get educated but you also go for the purpose to further yourself in life to get a good job and have a happy comfortable life(well in my eyes at least). the nursing thing i would make some money but it really isnt about that for me i love helping people in need because its just in my nature. What man is a man who does not make the world a better place? <-- i know it's cheesy but thats how i feel.

okay okay okay here is a joke...ready? sure you are............

Q. What did the man say when he walked into a bar?
A. "Ouch"

2 sizes down

2010-07-26T21:43:00.000-05:00

so im pretty pumped because im finally getting back in shape... when i moved back to TX a year ago i remember buying some pants and there were 36-34 and i have lost about 26 LBs and so yesterday i went to the mall and pretty much bought all new pants and shorts and the jeans i bought were size 34-32! which means i have dropped 2 whole sizes. i started losing weight about a year ago because well girls dont like a FATTY. im pretty pumped about me getting back in shape. i use to be a size 32! im debating if i want to get to that size again! i know i can do it. i just want to look healthy and have a great body! it might sound vein but it would be nice to have bulging abs too, either way i just want to look healthy and have lots of energy and feel great....

okay thats enough of the typing, i did not proof ready this post so if it sounds weird, then well too bad for you ;) <--might be hard to tell but thats a wink!

and i found this joke bc well who dosent like a laugh, granted the joke might be cheesy but its still funny in its own way!

Q. What has 4 legs, never forgets and is always ready to travel???
A. An Elephant!

it takes two to tango

2010-07-26T17:53:00.000-05:00

so my mind was going crazy thinking about this girl, because we stopped going out and then we would hang out occasionally and i thought she wanted to get back toegether but it turns out she does not. i found out today how she feels, and i still have feelings for her, but the feeling she has for me just are not mutual and she feels that we would just not work out together. so of course this hurt my feelings. There is a saying it takes two to tango, but i am happy for the time we spent because it was a lot fun and she is a good person. she dosent want to be with me and she wants different things, again hurts feelings, but i respect that. im all about keeping things real, there is just no reason in life to hate someone. I dont regret the time i spent with her at all, it was good times that i wont forget anytime soon. i of course want the best for her and for to have a good life becuase she is nice and deserves it.

i consider myself quite the gentleman at heart, maybe im too nice??? but i dont think that is a bad thing. like i said in my last post, life is short and sooner than you think it could be over, so everyone should do what makes them happy.

as always i shall end this post with a joke!!!!!

Q. Why did the rabbit buy the shampoo?
A. His hare was dirty!

77 days not smoking

2010-07-25T20:07:00.000-05:00

im not really going to talk about my not smoking i just want to label the post 77 days, only thing i will say i feel great and i feel like i have so much more energy these days.

so today i went to a mall and went shopping i rarely do this! like normally when i go shopping i buy one thing than leave, but this time i think i went a little over board i had lots of bags and my arms were tired from carrying them...

so yesterday i wrote this big long post about someone and it was really a good post. because friday i had a lot of drinks and texted someone and i said well it actually does not mater but it was something from my heart, but its complicated!...well anyways i sent the text and when i woke up in the morning it turned out it didnt actually send which i was relieved bc i felt dumb that i had sent it and got no response, but it never actually sent, which now that i think about it, maybe it would have been best that it did send?? hmmm... anwyays so yea i wrote this big long post about it yesterday then once i was finished i re-read it and could not pull myself to submit it and make it live on my blog, i have no idea why but i think its bc there are some things i dont want the whole wide world to see!

it's complicated<--- some interesting words, why must life become complicated?? so many reasons i suppose. but i think the most important thing is to do what makes you happy. i suppose this is easier said than done for some or maybe even a lot people. well there is one thing that is true in life for all of us, everyone dies. i think life is short and you should do what makes you happy! im not trying to be all dark or anything bc im not dark im happy with life! i just know that things happen, like tomorrow while im driving maybe some drunk driver could run in it to me and i will die, of course that would be terrible! but i wouldnt want to look back at my life and have regrets! and i think if i try to do what makes me happy i wont have any regrets. Dont get me wrong i have made mistakes like everyone has, but i try my best and sometimes trying is half the battle! i guess what i am trying to say is life is short, everyone should try to do what makes them happy. Geez im getting a little preachy! i promise tomorrow post will have no preaching! im just saying what was on my mind.....so i will end the post to what i am thinking....

Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those that matter don't mind.<---that's a quote from somewhere but i dunno where.

AND

Do what makes you happy. <---that's all me, i didnt steal that from anywhere! i have been saying it for about 3 years now!

hmm maybe i will actually end this post with something really happy like a kids jokes....

Q. What do Penguins use for napkins?

A. Flapkins!

last night's dream

2010-07-23T13:43:00.001-05:00

i just remembered my dream i had last night and it was weird...

i had this dream last night that i was super hero saving all the good people of Texas from a meteor. I stopped the Meteor bc my super powers were apparently amazing At the end of the dream it was crazy because i celebrated the saving of Texas by having a cigarette! and i seriously thought i wasnt dreaming and it felt like i was smoking for real after i finished smoking, i instantly was so mad at myself. who would have thought a super hero would smoke? lol

"Dreams feel real while we're in them. It's only when we wake up that we realize something was actually strange. " <--- anyone know where that quote if from??? :)

fridayness

2010-07-23T09:48:00.000-05:00

it's friday! im going to start my day off with a jog and then play some tennis! and maybe tonight i will have myself a nice drink.

so i can't sleep past 9am! i have tried so hard to, but i just cant. i usually wake up normally at 730 and then go back to sleep then i always wake up right at 9am so weird. some people can just sleep in, which i would like to do occasionally, it's really not fair!

so i know some people might dread going to classes, but i dont. im ready for classes to start back up in August, im taking 16 hours which for me is a lot bc i have never taken over 12 or 13 hours. but im up for the challenge of lots of reading and craming, bc i like learning, i dont think a lot of people think way but i sure do.

alrighty time to start my day with some running! woot...

running

2010-07-22T13:13:00.000-05:00

i just got back from a 4 mile jog! and wow and i sure am beat! my shirt after the 3rd mile was literally drinched in sweat(i know, very sexy!) it was weird bc after the 2nd mile i thought i couldnt go anymore then i just pushed through and after the 3rd i didnt feel that drained and the 4th mile was easier than the 2nd mile! i initially started to get in shape so one day i can just have a great body and look amazing. which that is still nice, but now i that is not why i still jog and work out. i do it bc it makes me feel healthy. although having nice abs and a six pack would be great. about 13 months ago i felt like a fatty and felt like people thought i was a fatty, but now i dont think that is the case anymore.

it's weird yesterday i dont think really had any craving to smoke a cigarrette at all. i think im on my 74th day? hmm dont really remember...100th day i totally want to celebrate, i dunno what i will be doing to celebrate but im thinking some champagne will be in order... then on my 365 days of not smoking i will have to do some amazing like travel to a different country, i think spain would be cool bc i hear the people there are really nice! plus their colture sounds kind of awesome from what i have heard also i think it's awesome that they have a glass a wine during lunch times..wine is good for you, well in healthy moderation of course.

okay as always i will end this post with a little jokey....

Q. What falls down but never gets hurt?
A. Snow!!!!!!!!!!

half way through the Summer

2010-07-21T14:03:00.000-05:00

so i have written in my blog everday for a while now and i think im addicted to it...

well i hung out with D yesterday and as always it was a lot of fun. she is a great girl. i think she is a bit shy about talking about her feelings about me, but i think i know how she feels and well im a patient man!

so for the last 3 weeks i have been worried about my mom bc she has been going to the dr a lot lately and she said the Dr.s are telling her she most likely has a cancer on her throat and there said they were 90% sure it is...so iv been really nervous about it and about 15 mins ago my mom just called me and said she just got her result back from the lab and i swear it felt like my heart skipped a beat! but she told me that the results are NEGATIVE for cancer!! yay! so happy! i told her right when she called me that were going out to dinner to celebrate!! im a mommas boy at heart, but shhhhh its a secret!

hmm nothing else really to talk about now....i did find this little childrens joke though....

Q. How did the farmer fix his jeans?
A. With a cabbage patch!

coffee time

2010-07-20T09:50:00.000-05:00

so i stopped smoking cigarettes and have not had a smoke for 72 days now, so it got me to thinking about my coffee drinking...

i use to drink coffee every morning probably for about 4-6 cups. and i think that is just a little too much. i read that coffee is good for you to have but in moderation and you should not drink more than 2 cups a coffee, NOT 4-6...LOL so iv decided to cut back. i think it was monday and i didn't have any coffee at all and that evening i started to just have a HORRIBLE headache which is probably because my mind was not getting enough caffeine as usual. so im cutting back and if i do drink the coffee i would only drink up 2 cups in a day...i will just wait to see how this works out! coffee isnt bad, but too much caffeine is bad for you...but dont get me wrong i love coffee:)

i guess the main reason i am cutting back on my caffeine is because its bad for your cardiovascular system. And since i had the blood clot a few years back i think i need to take care of myself as best as i can.

looks like i have nothing else to write about so i will end this post with a knock knock joke...

KNOCK KNOCK
Whose there?
Ice Cream!
Ice Cream who?
Ice Cream if you don't let me in!

Inception and a laffy taffy joke and more!

2010-07-19T15:57:00.000-05:00

so yesterday i saw the movie Inception and it was awesome. i like how it was just soo complex and it makes you really think. i recommend the movie to anyone! and it was a 2 and half hour long movie and it went by soo fast(not boring at all). Christopher Nolan who wrote AND directed this movie did an amazing job. i think Christopher Nolan is probbably my favorite director at the moment. The cinematography and how things were shot were outstanding, okay ill stop drooling over this movie now!

So after the movie i went over to (hmm well lets just call her "D".) i went to D's house and played her at some monopoly and totalllly whooped her butt! i have played her twice now at monopoly and beat her both times!dont laugh, bored games are fun..lol....i had a lot of fun being around her yesterday(we use to date and now hmm...)...but yea it was fun i think we have good times when we are together:) she is a good a girl, so anyways...

so i really want to go jogging right now but its just sooo hott outside this texas weather is killing me. i think i might go jogging if i have some time right before the sun goes down! hopefully im not feeling lazy at that moment!

i searched for another laffy taffy joke so here yea go...

Q. What is brown and sticky??
A. A Stick!!

70 days not smoking

2010-07-18T17:14:00.001-05:00

yay it's my 70 day not smoking!

everyday i think about smoking and i dont think that feeling will go away, but i think im okay with it now!!!

i remember talking to someone and they said they went 6 months without smoking and then went right back, i wish i asked that person what they think made them go back to smoking...oh well though i dont think i will go back to smoking anyways...

to some, me writing these little posts about not smoking might be stupid but i think it helps!

on a different note i think i did something stupid, i just made a fresh pot of coffee and started it drinking at 430PM and right now im still sipping on it!!! i hope i can sleep tonihgt! becuase i feel WIRED!!!!!!!!!!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! lol

interesting

2010-07-18T10:19:00.000-05:00

Last night I got some interesting text messages and I would go into it further but I think I will just keep it to myself for now…maybe and i think ill write something about it later today…

So this morning when I woke up I started reading a book I have been meaning to read for a long time, the book is called The Art Of War and I read about 20 pages and it was pretty interesting and Im totally intrigued to how the book will turn out…
So a few days ago some people I met from Yoga had invited me to hang out, it’s always a little well different when you hang out with new people you don’t know very well, but I consider myself a pretty socialable person and I think im easy going and likable. So yesterday I hung out with some of my fellow Yoga folks and it was cool there was a BBQ and some nice cold beer and some of this AMAZING texas heat(my face is a bit RED and I have this horrible zit from too much sweating now!) BBQ was cool and the people were nice and I think I had one of the best hot dogs I have had in a very very very long time, it was deliecious!. apparently at the bbq and this girl that’s also in my yoga also plays tennis and invited me to go play tennis, which is kind of cool because I haven’t played tennis in soo long maybe like 3 or 4 years! So were going to meet up to play tennis sometime later this week. Hopefully im not too rusty on my tennis skills! so yesterday my neighbor invited me over to try this wine that apparently comes directly from France and it was 40% alcohol and I was just amazed that it can be that strong of alcohol percentage, I had some and it was well it taste like hard liquor, so STRONG!! It was so strong I don’t know how ppl drink it bc its apparently rlly popular, I mean if you want to get drunk then that is the best wine for you, but for taste its not that good!

Hmmm well I don’t have anything else in mind that I feel like talking about so I will end this post with a laffy taffy joke!
Q. What did Mary have for dinner?
A. Mary had a little Lamb!!!

Also as a side not it’s now 70days of not smoking for me now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woot woot!

staying "connected"

2010-07-17T10:42:00.001-05:00

whats the importance of staying "connected" all the time through Email, facebook, text messages, myspace, social networking, twitter(still dont really understand why its so cool), internet, facebook status updates so we can tell everyone what were doing! there are soooo many things to keep us "conected" to the world! phones now that can do everything so you can know everything and anything and know about anyone or any updated news around the world right at your finger tips 24/7. and dont get me wrong i love checkin my email and FB and text messages and all those other goodies, but i think it has become rather addicting and easy for me to stay "connected", but it all seems rather impersonal...

whatever happened with people just picking up the good old phone or writing letters???i will admit i dont think i have ever written a letter, except maybe to santa clause when i was little boy. i remember my grandmother showing me all of these romantic letters from her late husband(my grandpa) and she has kept these letters for over 30 years, seemed pretty romantic...does these things still go on?? are people saving romantic or sweet text messages or emails??(i dont think people do) dont get me wrong im not mad or anything i just think that people should be a little more personal. i feel like many people of society today do not know how to express their thought or feelings through proper communication. is this because of wide variety of things we have to staying "connected"??? i think it might be!

i feel that i have this urge to check my facebook all the time and my email and cnn and celebrity gossip(guilty pleasure i admit its lame). what would it be like if i just disconnected myself from all of those little things! im thinking about even getting away from text messages or just cutting back a lot!, because it's so impersonal. i feel people don't talk on the phone anymore! i feel if someone would like to speak to me they would call me, i recently dated a girl and we texted all the time which i liked but after a while it just seems like maybe the person dosent actually want to speak to me on the phone??? or maybe, just maybe, which is probably right she felt it is just easier communicate via text message rather chat on the phone. Communication is one of the most important things in a healthy relationship and im not just talking about someone your going out with also friendship or family members. i guess what im getting at is all these little things we use to stay "connected" really just feel impersonal, well at least to me, i do feel others think the same way as well.

i know all these things we have in the 21st century are here for good and not going away. and i think all these new things to stay connected are good but in healthy moderation.

i think i am going to disconnect myself a bit from my facebook, becuase i probbaly check it way toooooooooooooo much! in healthy moderation these social networking sites can be good to keep in touch with some people, but like anything "too much of anything can be a bad thing"...i think also i have been texting a bit too much!!...

so my brother and his wife just went on a vacation to Cabo San Lucas and they left their phone behind. and i have to admit i am little jealous because i am sure it was very liberating not checking text messages, constant emails, fb all that stuff.

these are just my thoughts and something i have been thinking about...

hope everyone out there is have a great day :)

and if you read this it would be nice to see some COMMENTS

68th day strong not smoking

2010-07-16T09:55:00.000-05:00

well it's my 68th day of not smoking. it's still very hard! all the time i think about having a cigarette, but i know if i have one that it will not help anything. if i smoke one i know it will lead to 2 then 4 then 8 then a pack a day errr! i will continue to stay strong, it's weird because it's just a cigarette right? it's not heroine or cocaine or meth....maybe i'm just whining? well i still think it is very hard...

it's a weird feeling not smoking anymore after 5 years of smoking. i feel like a new person :) i feel like if i can do this then i can do anything!! i do feel like a new person though "that dont kill me can only make stronger".

my mind as been thinking like crazy about all these things i plan to accomplish in my lifetime. i dont think i use to really think of goals some years ago, but i do now and i like this feeling. so i have been looking for some places in Dallas to volunteer for maybe cancer or homeless people or just anything to that sort where people need help, i feel that volunteering is just something i would like to do and give back. this might sound weird but i just have this urge in me to help others =)

i can't wait till i make it to my 100 days of not smoking, im so pumped!!

a runners lullaby

2010-07-15T10:36:00.001-05:00

i wake in the morning and stumble out of bed. today is new day how shal i start this day? i start my morning stretched to warm up the body. i put on some gym shorts and a plain white t-shirt. i fasten my running shoes like im ready to go in to battle. i step outside and the sun beats down. i press play on my ipod and the music begins. fuel begins flowing through my body like being struck by lightning. i begin to put one foot in front of another in faster paces than walking. after some time as the sun beats down and the music is a rockin and my feet are a movin i begin to sweat. the sweat leads to pain and ache but i push through, the music is still rockin and i cant stop. i begin to zone out in to my running and have a moment. as times goes by and the music dies down i have sweat dripping down my body. and i say to myself "time to shower and start the day for it will be a great day"

i havent written something like this in a long time, and again i didnt proof read this just wrote it. probably only took me about 2-3 mins :)

laffy taffy joke

2010-07-14T18:00:00.000-05:00

Q. How do you turn soup into gold?
A. You add 24 carrots!!

yes it is a kids joke, but sometimes the kid jokes are the funny ones!

hmmm, well i have been doing the yoga thing for 3 sessions now and it's really interesting and the people that go there are really nice. im still not sure if i am going to continue to keep going to yoga though. Today i went for a jog and it sure was hot. i was so sweaty and at the end of jogging for about 30-40 mins there was sweat dripping down my arms and off of my finger tips.

I use to jog a lot when i was about 17-19 and then i stopped because well i just got lazy and didnt feel like doing it. im glad i have picked it up again tho. i think i might need to get some better running shoes because my left leg is killin me at the moment. it's just very sore. hmmm...so....

so.... for the last 4 days i have been watching my brothers and his wifes little dog while they are on their delayed honeymoon from getting married in april 2010 and they went to Cabo San Lucas, but i think their dog its a yorki-pooh? its small though. and the dog is a little spoiled but its a nice dog. the dog which is named Ella sleeps next to me on the bed, i havent had an animal do that since i had a cat about 4 years ago(cat died)....wow havent really thought about that cat in a long time, the cat was named Joey and was orange(i dont know the breed)...cool cat i only had him for about 5-8 months, but got him when he was just a kitten. The cat died on my 21st birthday he was outside and i think he was hit by a car:(....but he was a good cat and i have lots of good memories of him =)

i think i will end this post with a laffy taffy joke....

Q. How much did the pirate pay for his necklace???
A. A Buckaneeeer!!!

of the joys of laffy taffy jokes...LoL

best action movie

2010-07-13T21:18:00.000-05:00

Best action movie??????

Die Hard <---this needs no more further explanation bc its just that good of an action movie

i was watching the movie earlier and i have seen it dozens of times and everyime its just so good :)

Predators movie 2010

2010-07-12T22:03:00.000-05:00

i saw that new movie Predators today and it was a cool action flick.

i dont think it was better than predator 1 or 2 but it was still a good action movie...

i have to admit i thought this movie was going to be really bad until i read some reviews about it so i thought i would give it a chance....im glad i did bc it was entertaining. the acting was pretty good too and the storyline was also pretty good. my favorite scence was the asian guy with the samurai sword going toe to toe with a predator...

not that this really maters but i had some delicious popcorn while watching it! mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm POPCORN :)

do people change?

2010-07-12T21:33:00.000-05:00

do people change? this is a question that has recently been in my mind...

what defines change anyways? something to rslly think about....

do your past actions define who you are presently as a person?

well i do like to think people can change, i suppose change is only really made by the actions of an individual and how that person is showing not only themselves but others around them that are a changes person. i myself speak from personal experience, in my younger age a few years back i was selfish and didnt really think about others feelings as much as i should...

i think back on how i was a few years back(i wont go in to it bc for this story it dosent mater) and it makes me very dissapointed in myself for acting in ways that i did. i felt like i hurt some peoples feelings in the process. i do feel that it was definitely an unfortunate learning process for me. it has shaped the person i am today and i think i am a good person and i try really hard to be a good person....

i like to think these days...the saying i think it goes...do onto others as you would like done on to you. <-- im not sure but i think jesus said this from the bible??

i have tried to apologize to certain people in my past for being selfish, although i
would like there forgivness, but i cant really expect to receive their foregivneess...

all i can do as a person today is just try my best!!!

if the post reads a little weird its bc i didnt proof read it i just kept typing and typing, which i learned can help uncover what your thinking...

yoga experience

2010-07-11T11:38:00.000-05:00

well i started my yoga this morning! it was fun...

i really did like it, but i am a little unsure if i want to consistently do it...i think yoga is totally great, but i really like doing my whole jogging 3-4 times a week thing as well as sit ups and pushups everyday!

i currently signed up for a set amount of sessions for yoga, so i am definitely going to keep it going, maybe i will change my mind? i dunno...i know i like yoga i just dont think it might be for me to do always be doing it...time will tell!

i have been thinking about picking up Tennis again, bc its been too long since i have been on the court...(just thinking out loud)...

something new in my life

2010-07-09T13:10:00.000-05:00

something new with me that im excited about is that i signed up for a 10 day yoga class session...

iv always wanted to get into yoga bc i hear its really good for the cardiovascular...i wanted to sign up for yoga about a year ago, but i felt like i was too out of shape! for the last year i have been slowly conditioning my body to be more fit, after 27 LB of lost weight, more strength, and jogging i think i am ready to give it a go.

i use to go to the gym all the time and do the weights, but i stopped when i got a blood clot in my left arm(about 6 years ago), which i then was in ICU for three days and being in ICU seeing people die around me really changed my outlook on life, i was really young when this happened but i think its one of the best things that ever happened to me(as weird as that sounds)...im happy to be alive for sure, after the blood clot the dr told me i have to stop lifting heavy weights, which i did and gained so much weight bc i just stopped working out entirely...it really stinks bc i was in great shape and had abs and almost had a 6 pick!

i dont really like lifting weights anymore, im all about the stamina and endurance of being in shape :) i think the yoga thing might be a great fit... i will follow up after my first session to reflect on what i think, i wonder if i will like it\??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

60 days being smoke free!

2010-07-08T10:22:00.000-05:00

well this is my 60th day of not smoking any cigarettes!! woot woot!

when i first started i never really thought about making it to 60 day let alone 30 days. i just took it one day at a time...

i remember when i first started i read some things online saying you just need to make it 3 days called the 3 day hump, but i completely disagree with this...i think the nicotine addiction is something you will fight forever through out our lifetime, bc as for me as i deal with lifes daily stresses i always will have this feeling that i can just calm my nerves through a cigarette...

i still have cravings all the time, but i have learned how to keep away from the angry smoking monkey(smoking a cigarette to calm the nerves). personally i dont think i would have ever made it this long if i didnt pick up jogging, exercises is a must if you want to really quit. it helps release endorphins through out the body give you well a natural body high. i would say in the 60 days i havent smoked i have probably been jogging 40-45 of those days! i guess the next milestone for me personally is to make it 100 days without smoking...i know it wont be easy, but i really think i will make it!!!!!

i never said why i wanted to stop smoking, well i consider myself a healthy person i eat right, i rarely eat junk food, and i exercise regularly. actually before i stopped smoking i considered myself to be a person of kind of a health nut, but i was a hypocrite bc i was doing all the right things but treating my lungs like they were a garbage dump...so i wanted to be healthy all around not just partially...

...another reason i stopped smoking which is probably the biggest reason is because i didnt want to die of lung cancer or some other form of cancer or some other disease caused by smoking. really it's just like playing russian roulette, it would probably be a mater of time when it would kill me! i wouldnt want to be on my death bed bc of lung cancer thinking i could have stopped this and or even if my brother had a child i wouldn't want to be smoking around the child because that would be horrible for the babies health and also even thought what if i had a wife? or even a child? i know kind of crazy to think of, but i know if i was dieing of cancer i would feel extremly selfish having killed myself from something i could have prevented and they leaving my loved ones behind. A wife and kids? this is really a new concept for me, maybe i do want that life? i dunno?? like it's not out of the question, i guess if i meet the right person then i think it would be a good idea, but im in no rush. if the whole family thing happens then it happens, i do think if i ever get married and dont have the kids then i would still be a happy person...i guess i will just wait and see what life has in store for me!!! whupps i think i just went off subject! i wonder why that happened to me???????

anyways....back to smoking cigarettes and the addiction that has been a poison in my life for the past 5 years..... Let's face it cigarettes do kill people i think it is the 2nd reason people die in the united states. i know some people might disagree with me that smoking will kill you, but i think those are the people that just might be in denial about it...there are soooo many poisons in cigarettes its crazy to think that people inhale them in to their bodies...i saw a picture of a smokers lung that had been cut open and it looked like something out of a horror movie!! i guess another reason why i quit smoking is i started to realize i am not going to live forever, i think we all know this, but never truly think about it, i would like to live as long as i possibly can and i want to treat my body as a healthy vessel as long as possible, hopefully from my 5 years of smoking i have not made too much damage to my body!

i know it will be really hard to make it 100 days, but i am totally up for the challenge :)

well i have done the math and thus far i have saved about 200 bucks from not buying cigarettes! which in turn probably save me about 1200 bucks a year! and if i were to smoke for the rest of my life maybe 30-40 more years it would roughly save me $45,000 - $60,000 dollars and most likely the rough estimate would be much higher bc im sure the cost of cigarettes would go up....

if anyone out there reads this i have to tell you i dont ever proof read my entries i just type them straight through, so if it does not make since at all parts then i apologize i really just write these things to just get my thoughts out to help me reflect...

as always it would be nice to see some comments =)

59 going on to 60

2010-07-07T10:54:00.000-05:00

tomorrow will be my 60th day of not smoking a cigarette or even having a drag or a puff or anything...

oh the road has been long and hard, but im glad i have made it this far! =)

i feel that i have the inner strength to make it so i will never have another cigarette again! i really wish i never started, i remember when i first started smoking sooo many people told me "its best that you never start"...too bad i was young and stupid and hard of listening :)

weird thing is my father smokes cigarettes and has for about 35-40 years and he is 60 and is in good health! soooo crazy all of my memories of him for when i was younger i remember his with a cigarette...

i will probably post something about my 60th tomorrow...

i will be the best i can be

2010-07-06T20:03:00.001-05:00

i will be the best i can be....i dont want to be an old man with regrets i will express my feelings to what i am thinking and do all i can personally do for myself and to help others...i will be the very best human being i can be!

last year around this time i moved back to texas from being out in california for 2 years. and i made a promise to myself that i will be the best i can be...

I weighed about 227 LBs! and was without education to further myself in life and wasn't too happy where i was at...my promises to myself are as followed...

NOT in any paticular order...

1: lose weight, so i can once again have the energy of feeling great about myself as i once did when i was younger(5+years ago)....i currently weigh at 200LBs and my energy level has just sky rocketed and it feels great! although i feel i want to lose more weight and i am totally happy to where i currently am...

2: Education, education, education...where to start when i first moved out to california i landed a sales job i was really really good at it, i eventually climbed my way up to the management level and i am happy to say i was making about 70,000 a year doing so, but i hit the class ceiling where i knew i wouldnt be able to climb further, bc everyone above me had degrees...i wanted this badly...i knew i couldnt do this in california with going to work full time and school, it would be just too much for me so i moved back to Texas where i was born and raised and have my family near me...i currently have 2.5+semesters done with school and it feels great :) some people ask me why i would leave the money like i did, but i just tell them "it's just money and it's not everything in life and ill make more money in the future" im am truly happy with my decision to move back bc i know one day i will have the education that i am wanting...it is true what they say "knowledge is power"

3: finding my inner peace and ME - also when i left california i was still a bit down on myself bc i was dating a girl for about 3 years and things ended(it was for the best tho) and i was overweight, uneducated(degree wise)and i forgot who i was as a person(what makes me happy)...i forgot my likes and dislikes and what makes me happy...after being back in texas for about a year it really didnt take that much time to find myself and what makes me happy...i still have all of my goals that i am determined to finish them and its great and im glad that i moved back to texas because i know it's just a great feeling knowing what i want out of life...right now i will not go into all the details of what i want out of life for the later future, but i might share that for another time...

it's weird that i write these entries bc i know no one ever read these things, but i guess it is just for me to put my thoughts out there, which i think really helps me reflect =)

56th day of not smoking a cigarette

2010-07-04T15:31:00.000-05:00

so this is my 56th day without smoking a cigarette. It does get easier everyday, but the hardest part about quitting well at least for me is dealing with life's stresses....

I guess for the last 5 years when i did smoke and when i would get stressed i would just go take a little break with my friend Mr. Smokey. but now that i choose not to be friends with Mr. Smokey well it's just hard. I try to separate myself from stressful situations but unfortunately that is easier said than done...

This is what i do when start to get stressed....EXERCISE...honestly i don't think i would have even made it past day 5 if i didn't pick up jogging and various calisthenics. when i have a urge i also like to do some breathing exercises....

I sure do hope that this feeling of wanting a cigarette will go away, but my guess is it will now go away, but i feel im totally strong enough to fight through it!

i want to be the best i can be

2010-07-03T13:08:00.000-05:00

hello internet world!

So I have always had this drive in me that i want to be the very best i can possibly be. I want to be number 1! i think we all have that feeling regardless of us striving to do so....

Earlier this year i wrote all my goals down on paper and although the list was small, the goals are high in my expectation in what i want to do this year. One of my goals was to get into jogging, because it's good for your health and well im a guy and im 25 so jogging will help me look and feel like im in shape, so this will definitely help in the lady department. So i have been jogging 4-5 times a week for the past two months and it really helps clear my head to just think about my goals while i run...

I feel like im at a crossroads in my education while i am going to school, my intitial plan was to go in to computer science, but now after pretty much finishing all my prerequists i think i would like to go into Nursing. I have always had a caring for other and sometimes in front of my needs. I also have this drive in me where i want to make a difference in this world before i die(everyone dies).

For the last year i have this new attitude where i dont ever want to regret anything, i want to give it my all if you will. If i go out on a date i want to be a 100% ME! and if the date dosent like it, well then honestly theres nothing wrong with it because at the end of the day i know i did my best!

I think nursing would be a great thing for me, because i know i will be doing my best for others. This is something i think i will do, because i dont think in life sitting in either a cubicle or office while making someone else boat loads of money is something to really be important. When im older i want to look back at my life and know i did my best:)

I never proof read my blogs, so sorry if it dosent make any since. i just like to write, write, and write some more to get my feelings down. which if you have never tried it then i highly recommend it because it can be very therapeutic!

You know what to do, but you dont ever do it

2010-07-02T08:34:00.000-05:00

its weird today on was on my facebook and had this urge to write something kind of profound on my facebook status, but alas i did not put it in my status bc i dont want people to think im some kind of weirdo....of the facebook politics....

What i was going to say....I think the good majority of people know what they should do, but actually never do it. Let me give a few examples...A college student who know he should be studying for a test for the past week so he is well prepared but ends up procrastinating until the last minute and not doing so well on his test. I believe the college student knew he should have been doing, but just had no follow through on doing it...............im starting to think people dont do thing that they should do because they get too comfortable...another example...A guy goes out with a girl for 5 years then they get married, after they get married slowly either the male or female or even both gets comfortable and maybe starts to put on a few pounds or becomes less inclined to feel that they must impress them with maybe flowers... another example....some people know in their hearts they should be going to church ever Sunday but dont because they would rather sleep in. Although these people have great intentions on doing these things like going to church they just have no follow through on actually doing it!

I think people know in their heart what they should do, but just never do them. I think it is kinda sad.

I am a Male and i am an Emotional Creature

2010-07-01T15:35:00.000-05:00

well i use this blog for no specific purpose but to just write what i feel or what i think might be funny or just plain anything. I don't show any of my friends or family my blog becuase i consider it personal. Irony there is i dont really care if the whole world looks at it as long as it is not anyone i know.

Everyone has those moments where they feel like they are going to breakdown. At the moment i feel like that is one of those of those moments. I will say this right now there are far other things in this world to be sad about these are just the things that bother me at the moment. I think we all know as each individual we all have our own internal problems that we have to deal with....

So i was dating this girl for the purpose of this blog i will refer her as "D.". let me just back track just a little a year and half ago i was in a relationship with a girl for 3 years, but things ended when we both wanted different things in life. She wanted the be married and start a family and have the kids, which there is nothing wrong with that, but i did not feel the same way with her, after some time together we both found out we are just 2 different ppl. Soooo that ended, i was a heart broken because it was my a log relationship and it was hard getting us to. After time went by after things broke off i eventually just moved on, like most ppl do. But what i developed as what i think is a coping mechanism is a put up what i like to call a WALL to shield me from being hurt again. Which bring me to the girl i was dating D. .......

D. was a very nice girl, we dated when we were very young about 4 years ago, we recently dated again for about 3 months. We felt like we were both mature to actually pursue something possibly even serious??. after 3 months of fun, she shocked me and decided she wanted to break things off...We discussed these reasons why this was, which unfortunatly i will not go into, but it does not have to deal with any crazy drama like cheating, fighting, or beating. the only thing i will say about it was something to deal with her past and emotionally she is not ready to get serious because i think she might be lost or broken inside or maybe even scared to let me in?. She is a sweet girl, i have all the feelings for her now, in my eyes she is just kinda of amazing and she makes me happy and i also think we had this really good chemistry together, but i guess it is over now, which really hurts me becuase for the first time in very very vewry long time i tore down my WALL :(

part of me is happy that i tore down that wall so i can fully experience emotions like i did. but a part of me right now is mad that i did tear down the WALL and a big part of me right now is telling myself to rebuild the emotional WALL so i will never experience any kind of pain again...

Another thing that is currently on my mind which is putting me almost to the breaking point is that my mother was recently diagnosed with a thyroid neck cancer thing. i dont really know too much about it, but it really makes me scared becuase my mom has always been there for me :( i will remain in beside her to be strong for her, but deep in my heart i feel she might not make it becuase she is a bit older and emotional fragile(well at least in my eyes)...I guess with the girl D. and then my mother i feel like things are our out of control in my life...i know this might all sound depresing but i am a happy person , im just not happy 24/7 which is why i put these type things on my blog to help get my emotions out...what can i say im an emotional creature..

I have this feeling in me that i have to remain PERFECT at all times and do everything PERFECT or inside things will just turn into chaos and then i well just breakdown. I feel a since of pressure which im sure lots of us out there feel...

I wrote this blog straight through and did not proof read it, so if it does not make since i apologize....

If you did read this for some reason it would be nice to see a COMMENT :)

46th day of not smoking a cigarette

2010-06-24T22:23:00.000-05:00

well i have made it 46 days straight now with out a puff of a cigarette.

Let me tell yea it is HARD, yesterday i wanted so badly just have one puff!

if anyone is reading out there and has not started smoking then my advice to you would be to NEVER start!

And...if anyone else out there is reading and is trying to quit then my advice is just take it one day at a time or even one hour at a time!

***a warm story for all the recovering cigarette smokers to think about***............a few years back i was at a card parlor playing some poker and puffing on a cigarette and met an old man that told me i shouldn't smoke, which this made me kind irritated at the time...he said he was actually a X-Smoker and smoked for 20 years and hasnt had a smoke for 7 years. so i asked the X-Smoker "so, how has it been without smoking?" he said "well I will be honest it's been great, but not a day goes by where i havent thought about having a cigarette".

Will i make it 100 days without smoking??? i guess we will just see =) if i dont post around a 100 days then you will know i FAILED miserably.

Stupid Marlboro!!! LoL

Free WiFi nationwide at starbucks!

2010-06-15T14:29:00.000-05:00

Starting July 1st 2010 all of the starbuck's nationwide for WiFi will be FREE and have no registration, which is awesome. Those registration screen were annoying!

It sure is about time!

drunk driver in DFW area at toll stop

2010-06-04T07:51:00.000-05:00

wow, seriously!

i just had to post this video, soooo crazy.

no smoking for almost 30 days!

2010-06-03T08:45:00.000-05:00

so im on my 27th day of not smoking ciggerates and i have to say it feels great!

don't get me wrong i have plenty of urges, but i think i have this thing kicked right in the balls figuratively speaking of course....LOL

Olivia Munn as Princess Leia

2010-06-01T09:40:00.000-05:00

ooohhh mmmmmmmmmm GGGGGGGEEEE

this 13 year old kid Michael Chance singing Paparrizi is sick!

2010-05-15T16:27:00.000-05:00

Seriously this kid is just awesome!

It's funny just watching the girls in the background slowly drool over him!

Mega Man 2 Iphone & Itouch App Review

2009-06-02T09:01:00.000-05:00

This is my review for Mega Man 2 application for apples Iphone and Ipod Touch.

Mega Man 2 is a classic. 8 bit quality at its best.

The port from the original Nintendo to apples application is a good port.
Mega Man 2 is a lot of fun to play. The graphics are the same as it was on Nintendo. The graphics even have an occasional lag time when too much is going on all at once...lol
Unfortunately it would be a lot more fun if the controls were better. This not a flaw in the i pod. It just does not feel comfortable. There nothing like playing Megan Man on the original Nintendo controller.

Oh how we miss controlling you for hours on end and creating blisters..lol

Mega Man 2 app is a lot fun tho once you get past the functionality.
I would recommend a buy for this game for no more than $1.99 and it would be even better at $.99.

My Apparel & Stuff products

2009-05-19T10:51:00.000-05:00

make custom gifts at Zazzle

Zooey Deschannel Hit It Or Quit it ???

2009-04-22T00:44:00.000-05:00

Hit It ??? or Quit It???

USA National Debt

2009-03-16T22:07:00.000-06:00

U.S. NATIONAL DEBT CLOCK The Outstanding Public Debt as of 17 Mar 2009 at 04:07:11 AM GMT is:

Thats a big number...seriously. Are we suppose to pay this back?? If so to whom do we pay?

Whose staking us for all this money, because that's a scary big number.

The word " trillion " i did not even know existed till not too long ago....

What should USA do??????

Money Obtained After Mexico Drug Bust

2009-03-16T21:58:00.000-06:00

After a drug bust in Mexico...

Wow now this is a lot of money. I just want to sleep on it.

What is a douchebag?

2009-03-16T21:15:00.000-06:00

Well there are many definitions of a douchebag out there. The definition i am focusing on in this blog is this one referring to a person who if well " douchebag" as we all like to say.

Dictionary.com has this definition for us.... a small syringe with detachable nozzles; used for vaginal lavage and enemas ... <----this is not the definition we are going for.... You know lets just point out the looks of what a douchebag appears like in the wild. Wow this picture is great...note the tips on the picture for quick references.

The popped collar is a definite douchebag trademark.

Unless you are Zoolander stay away from the popped collar.

Recently i am come to discover a new breed of douchebag out there that i never knew even exited.

Guidos???
We must all ask ourselves are we douchebags? are these douchebags we see here on the page no better than anyone of us? HA of course not this these people are idiots. :)

How To Connect to Xbox Live by Wireless Connection

2009-03-13T14:41:00.000-06:00

How To Connect To Xbox Live by Wirless Connection

Here is a step to step process.

Step 1
· Go to this Area under " My Xbox "

Step 2
· Go the far right to the " System Settings " and press " A " to select
Step 3
· Select " Network Settings " by pressing the A button

Step 4
· Select " Configure Network " by pressing the A button

Step 5
· Select the area under " IP settings, IP address, Subnet Mask, Gateway " by pressing the A Button

Step 6
· Select " Scan For Networks " By pressing the A Button

Step 7
· Select the Wireless Connection you wish to use be pressing the A button.